you fucking prick.
would you like to actually have facts before you go and make such assumptions?
youre right. the keyhole that youre looking through must be awfully DAMN small because you cant see shit.
i leave him with "other people" a lot more than reasonable? i'm sorry i "leave him" with my mother, his grandmother at times. either because i am deathly ill and physically cannot and even though i make it best i can with watching him, my mom BEGS me to have her watch him. and my "ecuse" for him being thee over night? daniel is coming to PSL tomorrow to spend a week or two with his mother and i didnt want to bring kaidan back tonight and have him have to make a long trip BACK to PSL in the morning. again, my MOTHER offered to watch him, as did courtney. and if she didnt want to, dottie would have more than willingly watched him.
i would have stayed overnight but, opps! i have a 3-hour medical treatment in the morning that i need to be here for.
and we ARE on WIC [and food stamps AND medicaid, not that any of that is your damned business]. what the fuck does it matter to you? of course i am not stupid enough to pass by oppertunites such as those. free money? yes please.
i HAVE tried to get disability. again, i'm not FUCKING STUPID. i'm not eligible. which is why i have interviews lined up. again, what the hell is it to you? i make money here and there. i have what i need. if i want to get a job, then i'll get one.
any kind of college? wow. good thng i am halfway to an assosiate's degree and signed up for classes in the fal. will kaidan be 5 already by the end of this year? hmm.. time sure does fly.
i am more of an adult than you'll ever be. i go out to the movies a couple times when i am at my mom's house because she offers to watch him so i can have some "me" time. you dont see what it's like when i am here in my home with him. he's attached to me, and i wouldnt have it any other way. he's the brightest light in my life and i do everything with him - seaworld every other day, the park,the mall walks outside, grocery shopping. he even co-sleeps with me. just because my mom offers to watch him while i go out fo a couple hours doesnt mean that i am not acting like an adult, or too young to have a child, or that i am doing anything "shocking and disturbing". kaian has the most loving and caring environment possible - which is a tna nd a lot better than a ton of other families out there.
i never have a problem puttingmy child to sleep. niether does my mom nor daniel. maybe he wasnt tired, maybe he was too interested in something else, maybe whatever. just because a baby cries when youre trying to put him down doesnt mean that i have raised him "incorrectly". kaidan IS on a schedule -
8am- wake up
9am- eat breakfast
10:30am- nap time
2 or 3 - lunch
times inbetween those are play times. so you tellme how he isnt on a schedule? what the FUCK is there to corect? i dont need your fucking mother to tell me how to "correct" my child. i dont want my family to be like your whole fucked up family. each one of you was doomed from the womb, including your parents.
what eactly am i trying to keepup with concerning him? i am perfectly happy with the way kaidan is. he's my angel and i dont see a single flaw in him. he's the "easiest" baby i've ever known, seen, or heard of. theres nothng to do to make him "right". he's perfect to me and theres nothing about him i need to change. and there's crtainly nothing about my paternting i need to change. he spends every moment with me.i dont see what youre fucking deal is.
"Stop dumping your flesh and blood firstborn son onto other people's laps" - what the HELL are you talking about?? my mom goes weeks without seeing him so she offers to watch him over nght [when his father will be here in 12 hours!] what the hell? i am not "dumping" him anywhere. its not like i am going out to party and drink and do drugs and whatever else.
babies DONT go to sleep by putting them down in bed. i'd like to see any baby you know do that because then there's something fucked up with them. nothign with kaidan needs to be fixed. rocking him to sleep and having that time with him means the world to me. and i wouldnt want it any other way.
you didnt need any of this explanation but i needed to vent. you have NO FUCKING IDEA how infuriated i was and still am.
you are a goddamn asshole. and i hope you fucking die in iraq. you're going to tear apart my family and i hope youre happy with that.i dont dwant to see your fucking face ever again and if i do, i will rip it off. yo have no idea how tempted i was to drive down there and kick your fucking ass. i pray to whatever power there is you go overseas and die. it'll be best for everyone, and you know that.
next timeyou want to criticize others, besides actually knowing the facts before you bitch, take a look at your own shit life.
-youre going into the military because you cant do anything else with yourself
-youre only job has been burger king (oh wait, there was the "computer tech" job you got fired from)
-my mom paid for your braces to be taken off because you were too damn lazy to get a job to pay for it yourself.
-you STILL dont have your license. or a car. my mom has to drive you and my sister out on your "dates".
-you really have no future so you try to make your girlfriend [my sister] feellike shit and like her ambitions will never amount to anythng because you dont have any of your own becaue theres no reason to believe in yourself.
-youre a scumbag who tried to get a 16 year old to agree to marry him right out of highschoo JUST SO you could have sex.
i could go on forever.
you're shit and you know it. sorry. such is your life
and anyone who is completely confused, you can IM me at holdfastxh0pe and i'll explain the best of my ability - but this is all derived from this livejournal post that i came home to by my sister's boyfriend:( Dear SarahCollapse )